11.30.2011

My Christmas Bucket List - PART 2

Yesterday, Angge and I suddenly thought of holding a Christmas party-ish gathering at her place. For the very reason that I refuse to talk about because it constitutes a whole other dimension. Haha. Anyway, we of course invited Fiona, Saab (yeah, she's part of the group already), Paula, Jona, and Jhe. And since Fiona is a very generous and gift-excited person, she proposed the exchange gifts as part of the party's non-existent program.

Definitely, this means another chance to get one of the gifts we so want this Christmas. Hence, the need to complete my wishlist. If you'd scroll down some more, you'd find I am already able to cross out two more items from my Part 1 bucket list thanks to the Christmas parties we'd be holding in the office.

And here are the additionals:

1. Yellow cardigan

I am currently having a thing for all stuffs in red and yellow. And a cardigan is just one good item to have. No, I don't intend to wear it at work because it would not mix well with my hideous uniform. In fact, I have no idea where I'd wear it given that the next season after Christmas is already summer. Haha. But I want one just the same.

2. Red bag
Again, something red. A new bag is really, really needed right now, because I don't seem to find myself in healthy relationships with my bags and shoes, which therefore means that everything I own at present is slowly bidding me farewell.

3. Before Ever After, Samantha Sotto


I just saw this today at National Bookstore. It's already got a paperback version, so it's now very much affordable. I really want a copy of this because it's so intriguing and it's written by a Filipina.

4. The Memory Keeper's Daughter, Kim Edwards


Another interesting story. I'd like a new set of books to read, actually, regardless of how little a time I get to read them. And this one by Kim Edwards is just one of those books I'd really love to have my hands on.

5. A day at the spa

Photo Credits: Quan Spa

Ooooh, just a day to relax and be pampered after an entire year of stressful client encounters. Just one day!

6. An MP3 player
Since I have just currently developed a liking toward listening to music while traveling to and from work (and occasionally, before going to sleep at night), I would love to have an MP3 player. Of course it does not have to be an iPod or something superbly expensive as I'm not at all a tech-savvy girl. I just want something I could use for a good while and I could store in a great deal of songs.

7. My own bookshelf

Yeah, this is out of envy of Angge's newly installed bookshelf in her room. And that's something I superbly want for my own, too. It would not only give me a solution to the book clutter I am battling right now, it would also give me more reasons to collect all them books I so love.

The shelf can be as simple as this:


Or, it could be as fun as this:


8. A Paris-designed snow globe

I've always wanted a snow globe. And I am a great Paris-dreamer. So, I wish to be able to start a collection of every possible Paris merchandise and a snow globe is just a starter!

9. Book light

Since mostly I get to read my books on my way home and definitely with less lighting than what is necessary, I'd like to get a book light. The kind that you clip on your book and has a small overhead light.

I would've wished instead for a Kindle, but that's way too demanding already. Besides, I love the smell of real books.

10. A new job

Lastly, and which may not be counted as just a mere Christmas wish, is a new job. *sigh* I cannot even bear to say why this is included in here. But next year, I do plan to look for a new job. I'd like to go back to events, if I can find a company that has a very good system of doing it. Nevertheless, I'd want to start again my journey through a field I have a great fondness on.

I know this is a heavier list than the first one I've posted. Well, it is Christmas after all and the next person who could be reading this is Sir Nicholas himself. And I have been a nice kid this year (errr, as nice as I could probably get--probably).

So don't you think I deserve these? Pretty please?

11.25.2011

Last Day

I couldn't go and see you. Not even after the phone call.

I guess I just don't know how I would react or feel. Seeing you and knowing that when you walk away from me tonight, you're never coming back.


Now, I know, I do have to start saying goodbye. For real.


* Photo credits: Take a Chance

11.18.2011

. . .

I'll try.

I guess.

I don't know.

I already said 'No' and I plan to stick with it.

8 days . . . .

11.06.2011

Day 3 - Your Parents

Hey guys,

Well, I don't think for a beat here that you'd ever get to read this. But just the same, I'm not particularly sure of what I'd say. If I were still a high school student or probably in the first years of my college life, I guess I can say a lot. But since I'm already, erm, older, I think I've already lost most of those words.

I think I can start with saying thank you. For those times you have let me be the grumpy loner kid I want to be when I'm doing something important. For hearing out my senseless rants about office work and commuting. For picking me up Friday nights (not that you're doing this especially for me, but still, it's nice to have a comfy ride home once in a while). And all the little things you do for me that I don't get to say thank you for.

Next, I'd say sorry. For every single time I have given you disappointments, namely: graduating high school without honors; not getting into an education program in college; failing at my first job; refusing to make teaching a career; and that long, long while of being a bum. I know how you have created in your minds the kind of eldest daughter you deserve and I perfectly understand that I'm not that all the time. So, sorry.

Follow-up thank you: for accepting me even if I'm not that daughter.

Lastly, I guess I'd take this chance to say that however lax I seem to you, I have my set of dreams. Yes, it involves getting a car (and yes, driving for you, Mom). But I also want you to know that someday, I wish to have my own place. I wish to be able to put up a strong business and be successful. I don't really wish to be able to open a humongous bank account but if I can manage healthy savings then I guess I would. So you need not to worry about me. I have my future planned out even if without the clarity you wish it would have.

(Okay, and maybe I wish to have a family of my own too, Dad).

I'd like to end this saying you're the best set of parents I'd ever have. But I won't. Because you're the most irritating pair when you ask too many questions. Because you fight a lot of times and cause me migraines. Because you are way too strict and you won't admit it's what drives my siblings to rebel. Because you like being stuck at home to rest instead of going out to have fun.

You're not the best set of parents.

But even if you're like that, you're still the reason for my being who I am today. And because I love who I am regardless of the wretchedness I have within me, I love you too.

Always and forever.