Letter to Myself

Written on the night of 8/10/2012

Hi,

Today you turn 23. Yeah, everybody's sort of surprised that you're still in that early-20s bracket. You're so strong, as they keep on saying.

You have enjoyed your day, no doubt. Enjoyed saying thank you to everyone you have known from before who took the time and remembered to greet you and to those who had the guts to blatantly ask if today is indeed your day (better safe than sorry, I guess). Enjoyed the design in your work area, scarce but pretty much difficult to put up considering half your workmates are unable to come to the office the day before. And of course, enjoyed your gifts.

Aside from all of these, though, you seem to have gained happiness from the fact that everything seemed to have taken a full turn and became so much better.

Work has become bearable. You have found new friends in your co-workers and with all the laughter that you share together, the work load becomes considerably lighter. Remunerations have also become more generous. 'Nuff said on that.

But maybe what has really made your day today are the two of them. You are happy because you have something that can turn into a beautiful story if all the right signs point to it. And you have just gotten back what you have lost. Well, most of it anyway.

Admit it or not, you are happy over the time, however short, that you get to talk to him again. Over having told him about the new person in your life. You seem to have done it not to show off your new moving on skills and not even to try and make him think you have found a life that is so much better without him. You have done it, as I understand, because it is what you do together. You tell each other about the progress your lives are making. You tell him almost everything, seeking his understanding and relishing in the jokes he makes about your stories. In some ways, he's back.

All in all, today is a good day. And you hope that the days that would follow would be as good.

Well, I think you can be quite sure of that now. Because a year older can make you a bit more wiser than to actually wish for a good day while doing nothing to make it so.

Today, you turn 23. Today, you are happy. And today, you prepare for the life ahead with a lot of good vibes.


Always,
Ryo